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Influenster Review: 2012 College VoxBox

I’m a part of influenster, which is a great forum for product reviews and promotion. They are involved heavily with social media and all kinds of products from beauty, to office, to snacks and other goodies! I was selected to receive the 2012 College VoxBox last month and I decided to share with you all the items I was able to test and what I thought about all of them. So, here goes!

ImPress Press-On Manicure

“The Revolutionary new way to apply polish!”

The packaging is cute, a little plastic polish-type bottle filled with fake nails in beautiful pre-manicured designs. The application is easy: Simply find your size, prep your nails, peel off the plastic and stick on! No messy glue, no filing off tabs at the tips of the nails. They apply easily and last several days if you don’t work with your hands too much.

I, however, work in retail so I’m working with my hands all the time. My nails lasted about 4-5 days (they advertise “up to a week”) and I ended up peeling them off. Some cons: they’re softer than your usual Broadway or Everlast nails so they tend to bend a little bit. Although the stick-on method is simpler and less messy, it also doesn’t provide much of a hold. It would also be nice if they came in petite sizes (not sure if they do!). 

Bottom Line: Great for a special event but I don’t think I’ll buy them very often. 

Cost: $5.99 for colors and $7.99 for patterns

NYC Show Time Glitter Eye-Liner Pencil

%100 LOVE. I don’t really have cons about this product so I’ll say, I’m a big fan of eyeliner. Sometimes I like color, sometimes I don’t. This color was a dark black with some silver sparkle and it was fabulous. It’s just enough of a shine to wear to work during the holidays. I do a top-lid line with a tiny tiny wing and the pencil glides on very smoothly and doesn’t dull too fast. The color stays on for my work day and comes off cleanly with makeup remover at the end of the night. 

Bottom line: I want one in every color.

Price: $2.49 per pencil.

Necco Tropical Wafers

YUMMY. I love these. They’re great for a little sugar crunch and I couldn’t stop munching on these delicious flavors. My mom loves Necco Wafers and she loved these too. I don’t love all the flavors (Coconut) but that’s just a personal preference! The selection is a grea throwback to summer vacations – nice in the deep fall and winter days!

Bottom Line: I’m not much of a candy gal, but if I saw these on the shelf or at the movies, I’d grab ’em.

Price: $1.25 per roll, $24.00 per box. 

Pentel EnerGel-X Campaign

A Beautiful liquid gel pen from Pentel. I got this in a great purple color. I watched my usual Super Soul Sunday and took notes with it for a few hours. Never did it falter or dry up. It kept me writing quickly and smoothly so I could get down all the words of wisdom. 

Bottom Line: As a writer, I appreciate good pens. And this is a great pen. And for the quality, the price is right.

Price: $1.90 per pen

Energy Sheets

Okay, this was difficult. I don’t take in caffeine as a rule. I drink tea in the morning, which is a little bit of caffeine. But I don’t drink coffee on a regular basis. These sheets advertise that they have the affect of 1 cup of coffee per 2 sheets. They taste like breath sheets and dissolve in your mouth. Nice minty taste too! I had one on my way to work, I was feeling quite tired and hadn’t had my tea. By the time I got started, I didn’t feel anything, so I had another one. THEN I felt it. I was actually quite jittery, however and didn’t love it. However, this could just be a personal event. If you’re more used to caffeine, you could take it!

Bottom Line: Not for me, but they’re good for some!

Price: $5.95 for a pack of 10 sheets. 

There you have it! My short, but honest, reviews of the 2012 College VoxBox from Influenster. Hope that it’s been a little entertaining! 

Minor Miracle Setbacks

The truth is, it isn’t easy to change your mindset all in a few months. You can read the books, do the work, practice the prayers and meditations. But there are going to be setbacks. I had one of my own this week, I had to really plug in to my practice and the universe in order to re-evaluate the situation.

I’m have a part-time job at the Gap in a neighboring town. I’m taking a semester off from school, but I’m going back in January. I live with family and I don’t have to pay rent or for food, which is an amazing set up. But around the holidays, my co-workers increase and my hours decrease. So, yes, my paychecks have literally been cut nearly in HALF. And I had a minor freak out.

“I just set up my budget and now I can’t make it.” 

“I have no self-control over spending money.”

“I suck at saving anything more than a few dollars a month.”

All of these and more negative, fear-oriented thoughts FLOODED my brain. And I went crazy trying to figure out how to make a little extra money so I can have all the things I think I need and be successful in my life. 

And this morning, after days of considering the MOST ridiculous options (it’s embarrassing, so I won’t get into it!), I finally had a breakthrough. I remembered once again that MONEY ISN’T EVERYTHING. And what I can GET is NEVER going to be as good as what I can GIVE. 

MONEY will not make me HAPPY. MONEY will not make me SATISFIED in my personal life. THESE THINGS are not the answer. And now I’ve come home again, back to my place of love and giving and peace. I’ve accepted and forgiven myself for my fearful thoughts and I’m changing them into something I can really believe in. 

“I have a budget for a reason, and I can follow it.”

“I think hard about my purchases and use my money wisely.”

“I save up as much money as I need each month.”

 

Have a beautiful day. xx.

 

Four Rules of Recovery

Today I just wanted to touch on something that has been on my mind recently: recovery. Now obviously recovery can mean a ton of different things. Usually it’s pertaining to an addiction of some kind. Food, drugs, sex, love, etc. After being in and out of recovery for several years myself from eating disorders to self-harm, I’ve learned a few things. And I’ve come up with my top 4 most important things to remember when in recovery, whatever your addiction or illness.

1. You’ve gotta WANT it. 

I don’t care if you have the best doctors at the best inpatient treatment center in the state, country or world. If you don’t want recovery, you’ll never get it to stick. Between the ages of 17 and 21 I was in and out of “recovery” more times than I can count on my hands. I’ve had four different therapists, and tried every method I could realistically attempt. Nothing stuck as long as it has this most recent time around. And you know why? I finally told somebody “I WANT HELP.” Personally, my issues with food and self-harm revolved around my crippling depression so once that got under some control I was able to focus enough on the other issues. But it never happened until I finally decided I wanted to get better and be free from my addictions.

2. Relapse is a Part of Recovery

Don’t feel guilty. During your recovery you will most likely slip up. Whether it’s in your thoughts or your actions, you could very easily fall back into negative patterns. You may start to feel guilty and worthless and then it becomes a vicious cycle. So I’m telling you now, relapses happen and it’s OK. Don’t get down on yourself too much if you find yourself eating that extra piece of pie and wanting to throw it up. Don’t throw away your recovery because you had a shitty day and made one cut. Just go to sleep, pray for a better day and try again when you wake up. Sounds to good to be true, right? It wont be easy, I’m not saying it will be. But if it was easy, would it be worth it? Recovery SUCKS. It is the hardest thing you will ever do in your life. However, it is so unbelievably rewarding that you’ll wonder how you survived so long without it. You’ll wonder how you spent so long not seeing the true beauty and love of the world.

3. Put It Out In The World

Live your recovery. Write it down. Blog about it, journal about it. Write an anonymous article about it for your school paper. Go to an AA meeting, tell a close friend. Pray about it, meditate on it. By putting your recovery in the world you bring it to life. It’s so much harder to go back on your decision to stay in recovery if there are people relying on you. If you have meetings to attend and family members you want to see at ease. And by putting it into the universe, the universe recognizes that you’re serious about it and are ready, and she’s gonna back you up!

4. Adjust Your Environment Accordingly

It’s not going to do you any good if you’re a recovering drug addict still hitting the same clubs with your junkie friends. That’s just logic. I’m not saying that you have to cut ties with them. But (and this brings step 3 into play as well!) if they can understand that you’re trying to better your life, then they can live without you for a few months or years. If they can’t accept that, clearly you need to change your friends. It sounds harsh but if someone doesn’t have your health and happiness in mind, they don’t care about you and you shouldn’t make them a priority. During recovery it’s OKAY to be selfish and change your surroundings to fit your needs. Clear out negativity by getting rid of old clothes, books, and items you don’t need. Find peaceful ways to reorganize your life. Little changes around you will help your mindset to be clear and focused on your recovery, not on the person you used to be.

I know this doesn’t even begin to cover all aspects of recovery in all of it’s forms. But these are things that helped me and that I truly believe are most important in any recovery. A spiritual practice is wonderful too (and also helped me tremendously) but that is obviously up to you. I prayed and meditated a LOT when I was first trying to recover. And that was the one constant throughout my journey of relapses until what I truly believe has been my final recovery.

Do I still have urges? Of course. Around my period when I have to increase my anti-depressants, sometimes I have such a horrible day I very nearly turn to self harm. I still keep “supplies” nearby. Probably going against rule #4 but, I’m still recovering and working on surviving without an unhealthy crutch. Even at my most balanced, I still trip up. But I no longer feel guilty. I accept that what I’m experiencing is legit and I just sit in it for a while. And then I let it go. I forgive myself and say that it’s OK. I didn’t act negatively and I can still change my thoughts.

So take what you can from this, and leave what you can’t. Have a beautiful day. xx.

I found God on my yoga mat.

Every now and then I go back to Connecticut for a therapy appointment, or a visit, or a holiday. And every now and then I’ll go with my mom to a yoga class to get in a little workout. Of course, I do plenty of yoga on my own, almost daily. These practices I do myself are usually lower impact than what I get with my mom, but they’re more for my spiritual balance than losing weight or gaining muscle tone (though I don’t push that away either!). Anyway, this past week I was in Connecticut for Thanksgiving and the morning of, I went with my mom to class. 

And it was a great class. It’s hot yoga (not Bikram hot, but still warm enough to sweat), and I always feel as if I’m getting in a great, centered workout during and after class. And that day, as I rested in shavasana at the end of class, I felt God. I couldn’t explain it, and when I told my mother after (who is the most Agnostic person you’ve ever met), she kind of just laughed a little and ignored it. 

But laying in that place, where my mom sometimes falls asleep, my mind was awakened. I felt the most blissful sense of love and peace come over me and fill me up from top to toe. I knew that I was exactly where I was supposed to be and that everything that was going to happen from that moment on was going to be fine so I didn’t have to worry at all about the future. I just had to be. And so I did. I just existed in that place, with love, with God. 

That is the kind of spirituality that I’m trying to bring to my everyday. That is why I wake up and pray and meditate and do yoga every single morning. That is why I recite affirmations throughout my day and settle into my sacred space each night before laying down. That is why I recite everything I am grateful for every moment I can. It’s those moments I’m most grateful for, and those moments I try to manifest more and more into my life.